It is early Sunday morning (1AM) and I have just finished hump day of my 7 on in the ER. I have been winding down by playing with my new laptop and sending Greg the pictures we took at the wedding. We have finally gone into the 21st century by getting high speed internet at our home in the deep woods. I still have a lot to learn about computers but it sure has been fun learning about this one. I may actually become pretty good at this stuff by the time I reach 80.

On another note I have actually had two days and nights almost pain free. At times like this I am almost tempted to call the surgery off. I have 11 more days until S day. As time gets closer, I get a little more nervous. My daughter asked me "where is your faith in God?" It's not that I don't believe in God and have trust that He is going to be with me through this, it's because I have taken care of patients in the past who have had back surgery that went wrong and those images keep going through my head. The other reason is I have not had anything major happen to me in my life that I didn't have Mom to discuss it with. It makes a difference that she's not here to talk to about this.

I am about to fall asleep so I will go for now. I plan to take my computer to the hospital and will let you know how the surgery went. Much love to you all.